I didn’t start meditating because I wanted to be calm or wise. I started because my mind felt like a crowded room with too much noise and too little space to breathe.
If you’ve ever felt like your brain won’t shut up, I get it. That was me. So I told myself, “Thirty days. Just try.” And what I learned surprised me.
My Mind Was Louder Than I Realised
The first few days were messy. I sat down, closed my eyes, and my brain started talking nonstop. Questions, distractions, random thoughts.
I thought meditation would calm me, but it first showed me how loud I already was.
You can’t calm a storm you don’t know you’re in.
My Thoughts Weren’t the Enemy
I used to treat thoughts like emergencies. During meditation I realised they’re just visitors. They come, they go, and not all of them matter.
Seeing them like passing clouds made my mind soften a bit.
Stillness Felt Wrong at First
Sitting still felt strange, even guilty. Like I should be doing something productive. My brain wasn’t used to slowing down.
But after a couple of weeks, stillness felt like a place — a quiet corner inside me that didn’t ask for anything.
My Anxiety Didn’t Vanish — It Slowed Down
Meditation didn’t remove anxiety, but it slowed it. Instead of overwhelming me fast, it came in waves I could see coming.
That small space between the thought and the reaction felt like strength.
I Became Kinder to Myself
During meditation I kept drifting, forgetting, losing focus. But every time, I brought myself back gently. No judgment.
That softness followed me into daily life. I stopped attacking myself for small mistakes. I learned to return, not punish.
I Started Noticing the Small Stuff
My tea tasted warmer. The sounds outside felt sharper. My breath felt real again. Ordinary moments felt alive.
My attention changed, and so did my experience of life.
My Mind Needed Maintenance
I take care of my body but expected my mind to handle everything on its own. Meditation showed me it was tired, not broken.
Even a few minutes of quiet felt like cleaning a crowded shelf inside my head.
So, Did 30 Days Change Me?
No dramatic enlightenment. No magic glow. But I felt calmer, softer, more aware, less reactive.
Meditation didn’t fix everything — it just made my mind a nicer place to live.
If You Want to Try It…
Start with two minutes. Sit, breathe, let thoughts come and go. No pressure, no fight. Let it be messy and human.
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Come read more. Come slow down with me. Your mind deserves a small break.
